Who am I?

To discern is a beautiful process, it's like discovering a new life, that has been kept in a special place.  I turned off on a road that I allowed myself to follow Jesus, while at the same time God knew that it was time, for me to see the purpose of his creation. The Monastic Diet for me, is to rid myself of everything I knew before and seek God's purpose in me as a person and the world at large. This is a very heavy task, so many roads beckon me to travel, as they chant, this is the right way. However, Jesus has actually invited me to enter into darkness with him, so that he may show me the light, the true light on the other side of this kingdom. I remember, when I first moved to Seattle, November 1999 and I was driving alone from Long Beach California to Seattle Washington, me and my stuff. It was late at night and I had just passed Sacramento, California. Out of nowhere, this very heavy condense fog, was like white snow on a TV screen or a wall that could not be penetrated by anyone. It was me, another car and a 18 wheeler big rig. Each of us, to our own lane and driving way below 5mph. I decided to follow the other car, but you can only imagine what its like driving behind a very slow driver and at 3mph, "death wish". However, all three vehicles and its occupants had entering in the unknown, not even knowing what lies ahead of them, with each kilometer waiting to be explore. If you know me, you can only imagine what happen next. Patience at that time was not a word in my vocabulary, least putting it into action. However, prayer was and I knew what my next course of action was going to be. Therefore, I got back in my own lane and start saying the "Lord's Prayer and a few requests from this invisible person up in the sky or North of my location. Jesus, please be my eyes, I am afraid, but you know my patience. I have no idea how many miles this fog is traveling, but I need you to get me through it. I took a long breath, fixated my eyes and allowed the right foot to push so softly on the gas peddle. I could not see anything, so I tried to focus on those fog bumps, put on my fog lights and proceed with caution, as my speed odometer rise. Jesus please, and just like that, these long thick black wavy poles, just came out of nowhere, sky, heaven, wherever and the personal effect, was like the image of  those waving palms, as Jesus was approaching Jerusalem on his donkey. However, these were Black poles which had no beginning nor ending, waving back and forth on each side of the vehicle that I was driving. As I continue into unknown space on Interstate 5, all I saw ahead were these waving poles, penetrating this thick wall, allowing the forbidden passengers through. What I thought may take an eternity, was short lived and the next thing I knew, "we" were led out of the fog into the milky way. The white snow screen became the dark black sky, filled with a host of stars and yes, the north star shining every so bright. I shouted, I looked behind me and saw the other vehicle and 18 wheeler proceeding to exit off the highway. I honk my horn and wave goodbye, not knowing if they saw the wave. I continue with a big smile on my face and of course thanking Jesus Christ, as I chant to myself, I have chosen the right path , I have chosen the right path.